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Redefining life.

Before I could grasp the severity of the situation it had already begun. The chaos in my life never got sorted and I had to detangle myself from it to be physically, mentally and emotionally available for them, my parents.. It is difficult for me to see them in such a different stage of life..oldage. I knew it was near but I wasnt prepared just yet. I have always run to them to solve my problems, to get their support, to come out of my misery. I wasnt used to give support to them. I always thought of myself as that little girl whom dad used to bring flowers for. The constant hospitalization got the better of me . Maybe I wasn't ready for this kind of intensity, involving the minutest detail. I think I could have done better....much better.. in handling everything differently. The exams, my early periods ..the covid situation , no maids and the constant anxiety disabled me to function normally. Oh! the excuses are endless still the fact remains the same...I could have done bet
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A little scare and a lot of agony, takes you right where you land.

You are this tiny dot living in the all encompassing world, till you understand this you feel like everything is about you. It revolves around you. My life recently had a whirlwind tryst with dengue virus. It would be safe to say that I am slightly obsessed with mosquitoes. They after all are reasponsible for a wide variety of human casualties happening due to their dengue, malaria and chikungunya viruses and their consequent infections. Initially they leave you paralysed to think that you are the worst affected. Then when you meet the doctors and take the prescribed medication and rest, you feel the least affected. Then comes the stories. The comparisons. Mind you noone has their stories like you. Its always one friend or one relative who had dengue. The deluge of advices and home remedies are maddening. The moment my parents took upon themselves to stay with me for a couple of weeks and get me on my feet again, I knew the journey was going to be a rather tedious but interest

Fussing over 40.

It feels like I was born yesterday. It feels surreal. It feels like happiness. God knows how I landed up at forty.. Its not that I am afraid of forty. But then so many people keep talking about forty like its a bad thing to cross the dreaded number. You get asked so many questions, the stereotype is - did you get your eyesight checked ? They assume everyone gets a number, atleast farsighted at/ after forty. Who do you think you are to defy the laws of age forty? You might be in need of forty plus specs. Ohhh and how could you miss that....such a reckless mom. Whoa. Whats that to do with my motherhood. If you dont have kids then be ready for- how carefree you are sans kids...they start to wonder how you would manage your future kids. I mean Seriously. Why is forty such a mid life crisis for some is beyond me. They must be having their reasons, I am sure. However, beacuse I have just crossed that threshold, I must say that nothing much has changed for me after forty. No explosi

Young or old, does it matter?

Old will always be gold. And gold here alludes to the purity of things and not the value, as the value of diamond and platinum will always be higher than gold. But we never say old is diamond or platinum. Every year we celebrate our birthdays with great aplomb though we are aware that we are not getting any younger but older every year. You are as old as you feel you are in your head. All of us have two ages : one is our biological age and the other is our calendar age. Some of us give undue importance to our calender age. If you want your real age, ask yourself. How young you feel? That is what you are. People sometimes use age forty as an excuse to not try out certain things. Like that thing suddenly becomes a taboo after forty. After age forty people think they can't exercise vigorously. Although you should exercise irrespective of your age, If you are new to it, you should definitely talk to your doctor and then embark on a new journey. As for anything else like pain

Beware of frenemies!

A friend in need is a friend indeed! Or is he? When you have a known enemy it is already bad so where does it leave you when you have frenemies? The concept of frenemies was always there since life itself. It might have evolved from generations. So what the heck is a frenemy? It is that person who you think has your back but they are the ones who have your back just long enough to stab in it. I had always wondered how can you not recognise who your frenemies are so that you can steer clear of them and save some heartache. However it is not as easy as it seems to be. When you are in such a situation it is complicated. Sometimes you know what's happening but you being generous to a fault, give them a second chance and then some more. Why are they so insecured around you is for them to know and you to find out. The frenemity stems from this insecurity. They will always have a laugh at your expense and will get a feeling of Schadenfreude when you are in trouble. If you noti

How much do you really need?

Not long ago if someone would have asked me, what is that you want more and more, I wouldn't have blinked an eyelid before replying more money, preferably in cash. And then I thought isnt that the top most thing on everyones mind. Judging me wouldn't be right then, would it? Money buys all, not all but most of the things we want (or we think we want) in life. It all starts with an innocent thought of getting a good degree so you can get a decent job. However it never stops, does it? You want this and then that and then a little bit of more too. Life is good and you feel happy. Then you look around and you see there are some people who are earning more and you feel like you are not doing enough. You forget to look at people who are earning less than you. But that's convenient for us and so we move on. Ready to do more, to slog harder to reach that so called `place' where the others are. Can we really reach that `place' where the others are? As that will a

Truly The Lion King.

I had seen the movie a couple of times before too. However this time I saw it from a new perspective. Earlier it was the animated version and the remake is the photo realistic version. Nevertheless the fresh one is as amazing as the original. When I had first watched the lion king I was still in school and saw it like I would watch any other animated Disney movie, with a lot of curiosity and amusement. Well ofcourse Disney always delivers. And it did this time too. Later when I saw the movie with my kids, I saw it through their eyes. I watched their expressions more than the movie. When my elder9 saw Mufasa the first time on screen her jaw had dropped in awe. She just fell for the cute little lion Simba. My younger one was too young to understand any of it but she sure seemed to be fascinated by the Lion King. Yesterday when we saw the remake of The Lion King I was totally enthralled by the photo realistic version of it. The VFX is pretty neat. This time I knew the plot so I